This website, something that once filled me with excitement and joy only fills me with panic and dread now. Something that was a new project that I was proud of is now something that every time I think about it, I cringe. I don't know what this site is anymore. All I know is that it feels completely abandoned and that upsets me.
It's become a total mosh-mash of things, personal confessions mixed in with pop culture reviews. It's like its struggling to stay alive but it doesn't know how to draw it's next breath. And that's because I don't know how to keep it going.
I'm writing almost every day for Mind the Gap Zine and I'm so happy about that. I've contributed to The Edge and to Cinefilles. That's awesome to me. But this, my first baby, has become a burden and I don't want it to feel like that anymore. Either I step up my game and begin to fill the 1s and 0s of this webpage with content or I let it go. And I don't think I'm prepared to leave it be just yet.
So no promises right now. No lofty projects that never get completed. Just a hope that I can get the spirit back and return Jane's Views back to its former glory (or whatever it had before). I'm not giving up on baby just yet.