What You Need

So this past week there were no updates because I had a pretty busy week. 

I finished my internship.

I interviewed for a full time job.

I interviewed for a 6-month contract.

I interviewed for another internship.

I wrote a final exam in Grammar, thereby finishing my publishing certificate.

And... I decided to move out. 

Also, I'm inheriting a cat.

So yeah, busy week.

Because of all the shifting and changing, and also because I'm still temporarily unemployed, I've been going through the things that I own.

Holy crap, I have a lot of shit.

Some of it I wouldn't trade for the world. Some things I do in fact need, like clothing and my phone. 

However, today I found a massive bag filled with burned CDs. 

I don't even have a CD player anymore. 

Needless to say I spent the entire day clearing out my room at my Dad's, which is not even my main bedroom. I filled three garbage bags full. FULL.

Clearing things out made me think about what we actually need as human beings. As I became more financially comfortable, I would be more blasé about the things that I was buying. This has resulted in a huge stack of books that I have never read and a closet full of clothing that I only wear half of the items from.

I also have an intense desire to hold onto memorabilia, like ticket stubs, programs and receipts from foreign countries. What this amounts to is a stack of paper that I want to organize, but never do, with my adding to it haphazardly, promising myself that one day I'll put it all into a scrapbook.

This will never happen.

I'm starting to realize that these are all things that I do not need to keep. They gather dust, cause me stress because of their mess and are a general nuisance. 

I want to live a life using only the things I need. That isn't to discount certain things that I want, like cosmetics and video games. Those aren't necessarily essential to life, but they do contribute greatly to my happiness.

Old movie stubs don't. 

Because I'll be moving to my very own (already furnished) apartment, I'm trying to pare down what I have so that when I move, it will be as painless as possible. A clean and organized living space leaves me with a clean and organized mind.

However, because I've held on to some things for a very long time, I don't want to completely eliminate my memory of ever having them. This is where having a phone with a decent camera comes in handy. I'm snapping shots of all of the things I've tossed and will be tossing out. It leaves the memory without taking up any physical space. 

At the end of the day, things are just things. Things can be replaced. My sanity and my wellbeing are less easily remedied.

Here's to new beginnings and to letting go. Happy Monday, everyone!